Last summer, I had sitters and camps all lined up so that I could work, and then each sitter fell through, and yes, my kids refused to go to camp.

I was pissed! And then I settled into how amazing it is that I have a choice to slow down if that is what my family and my own sanity need. And so, I had a blast. Yes, the kids watched more movies than they did all year long (in my attempt to hear less fighting and do a little paper work), but we had fun.

Beginning the planning for this summer, I was shooting for another working summer for me (with the glorious month of August off- life is tough, I know!), and then I tuned in to ME (the big me, the Soul me). It turns out she wants to slow down. Ugh! Really? Slow down? But the company needs me, the kids can be plopped into camps, and I got LOTS of projects in the works… slow down?… do I have to? (wining here- yeah, you know the sound)

So, I compromised with my soul (no, it’s not like a pact with the devil or anything!) I have figured out a way to slow down, get writing time, work time, and still spend tons of time with the kids. Ok, that sounds so busy, I’m scaring myself here. Yes, all this figuring out was happening in my head only- in an attempt to hold on the the reigns of my life. Who is this SOUL lady think she is anyway!

But then there is the moment to moment living. THAT is what my soul is asking more of… listen to the moment it whispers (yes, I hear voices, put me in the nut house- that ought to slow ya down.)

My own internal guidance system wants to savor summer and being present without being pushed. (Yes, I’m pushy, even with myself, just ask the photographers that work with us!)

I’m not a Bible quoter- rehabbed from my boarding school days actually, but this seems so appropriate…

Psalms 46:10 Be still, and know that I am God
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In the stillness and quiet of the moment, answers come, or more importantly, we can allow to see the Divine within. The idea of stillness and quiet seem so foreign to most of us as parents, but the truth is that just by BEING with the children,  pockets of quiet & stillness bring the most unexpected gifts. Notice  those pockets.

No matter what kind of summer you have with them. My life is just one way, you have yours, just stop & pay attention to those unforgettable little moments that make you feel alive and connected.

Hugs,

Asha

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