Archive for July, 2010

The core

Friday, July 23rd, 2010
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We are always so concerned about this detail, that detail, are we recycling enough, is my pantry stocked with enough gluten-free goods, are the bills organized enough, am I disciplining correctly, did the kids have too much sugar or no sugar (a win for sure!), did I teach them the value of money, did I forget to put on the sunscreen (not on them, me! yes, I tend to come last), did I actually send out that proposal I worked on all night, and sometimes it all just about one thing… did I show up. With love and compassion.

I was recently shocked by the news that a man in a leadership position, who cared deeply about sustainability, growth, education, was dealing with a very very dark secret, a secret that propagated a horrible industry and how his secret energetically affected his constituency and destroyed their hearts as the secret came into the light.

The Truth is. Many think they won’t get caught, and many don’t. But in this era of Authenticity and Truth, we are not surprised at the fall of leaders. Clean house, my friends.

So, I got to thinking about how we can be concerned about peripheral things and sometimes forget (or escape) from going to our core and asking the questions. Is the fruit inside green, ripe or rotten. Big breath. What we do on the outside world is a true gift, but when our internal fruit is not ready to be savored, it’s time to pay attention to the garden within.

We all have our dark side- it’s part of being human. May you take a moment to look within and see if your fruit needs attention.

 

Soulful Yes

Saturday, July 17th, 2010
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The most amazing opening presented itself to me today– as I congregated me, myself and I for day 2 of the 9 day Hear-it  event. All happening in my own head, by the way. A real circus right?

The message that came very clearly today was to be in a state of YES. Not like saying yes to everything in an out of balance way, but a Soulful Yes. And through this Yes, Heaven on earth is possible.

I was guided to pick up this book about Amma (the Hindu saint). I revere this woman, but I don’t really jive with the worship of her, or worship of anyone else for that matter. But I will say that the first time I saw her I could recognize that she was a woman dedicated to the service of humanity, a Mother Theresa type. Anyhow, the book said that Amma shows up to be whatever people need her to be. When people are suffering, she shows up as Divine Mother, or when people are ready to be a disciple, she shows up as a Teacher. She does not define herself as ONE thing.

And so too can I follow this example. To be what is needed for me to be in the moment- with my intention to be of service, I show up in the form that the person in the room or on the phone needs me to be. I’m not talking about having no backbone or being controlled by what others dictate, it is more about letting go of all those ideas we have of what we need to be, and just be present. I find that it takes a lot of Wisdom to not attach to a persona we play, but to be in the empty space of being truly present.

And in saying YES, I also open up to the possibility that the Universe says Yes to me.

So, what do I want? What do you want? Can you say YES to your soul?

 

9 days to HEAR it out and then it’s gone!

Friday, July 16th, 2010
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Just a quick note from Asha:

A few people emailed me really connecting to the last post- about having a tough time right now. No problem. Remember, this is temporary, and to maximize the productivity of the challenges (always trying to work smart around here!), I have a suggestion.

Take the next 9 days to let go of what is no longer working for you. Or if you want something, a new job, career, life, or like many spiritual people, trying to follow your Life Purpose (loaded word, I know, but we all get what it implies- that we live a connected life), then make this 9 day commitment.

Every day, maybe only for 5-10 minutes, create a sacred space, where you breathe in and out mindfully, and then write (or do whatever your soul calls you to do) with the intention that for the next 9 days you are kicking this habit of not living fully to the curb. Each day, see what comes up.

I want to do my Spiritual Midwifery work and so I am consciously opening up to what wants to be healed (not really HEALED, but more like it wants to be HEARD within me). Like there’s parts of me that does not want me to do this.

So, in hearing this morning, I was ready to confront ANGER- and yet, I was taken somewhere else… I was taken to a time in my childhood when I decided being a tomboy was better. I was only 9! I had been somehow been sexualized by my older 12 year old neighbor, and his little brother (10) was heart broken because he had a crush on me. Oh, boy, love triangles really do happen early! Anywho, that little girl just wanted to be heard for this moment, and I cleared ancestral sexualization of women.

Weird stuff. I get it, and I am trying to type this fast, so you have something to work with during these crazy days.

This over-emphasis on feeling attractive to others has stopped me from my Spiritual Midwifery work. In more ways than I can comprehend. And truth be told, a huge part of me, does not get why this would stop a person from assisting other people in coming into their True Self, but I just go with the flow and trust that this was what I was supposed to focus on hearing today.

In some ways, I feel as an observer right now. I don’t think there is truly anything to heal, just parts that want to be heard (have I mentioned that?!)

Could you do 9 days of hearing parts of yourself? And after you listen, you can visualize what you truly desire from this place of being totally connected.

Hope this helps. And if you feel you need assistance- let me know!

Blessings,

Asha

 

Energetic Puke

Wednesday, July 14th, 2010
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Maybe it’s true that when you look for red cars all you notice is red cars. Well, I’m in a red car, only this car feels like a freight train going through what seems like precarious rails built lifetimes ago. I remember wondering how with the chaos of India trains would run so efficiently. Of course seeing the big hole which was supposed to be the “toilet” in the filthy bathrooms of our moving Experience-the-culture-of-the-real-India was a bit daunting.

And then you’d see the hundred’s of people we would pass who were repairing, hiding from the sun for breaks, or just plain watching the NRI (Non Resident Indian) with her blue eyed kids as if they were mesmerized by the possibility of such an occurrence. And you knew by seeing them, and they seeing you, that it was a safe ride. Even if a bucket of Purell could not cure all the germies on the train, we were safe.

I have to remember the chaos of India this week. Yes, I had a birthday. Almost 40. I love getting older, but there was something funky about this birthday. Not what I did, but how I felt. Unsettled. And honestly, it’s not like me. The week before I was boasting on facebook about how grateful I was for my life. And I meant it. But something happened on July 11.

Don’t know if it was the solar eclipse, the new moon, who knows, but I silently fell into an abyss of miscommunications, landscapers cheating us of money and most sadly, feeling like I’m loosing a few friends. (It’s time, but who deals well with break ups anyway)  All the while I borrowed a book, named “Anger” by Tiht Nan Han. Great. Ok, so as I live this roller coaster, I remember our trip to India.

Oh, India is incredible. So incredible, but NOTHING could prepare me to the shock of Mumbai, and how my little one would react to it, or how my fears would creep in the middle of the night, as I watched people taking their 4am strolls through Juhu Beach, while watching my seemingly dying husband (he had dengue- mosquito infected due to his travels in the slums- joy).

I got through it. We all get through it, right? We breath. We feel the feelings. Think supportive thoughts. Seek good friends. Cry. Hope for the best. Know that it is temporary. And we get through it. Some with grace and some in shitty ways. (Like me tonight yelling at my husband). Oh well. That damn book taught me nothing.

The truth is that it is uncomfortable to feel this way. And I have to be honest, it’s been a long time since I have felt this way.

And what I am keeping close to my heart this from a newsletter called Currents of Change–

this powerful new Moon time is a call to come into right relationship.  This means initially that we need to be in right relationship with ourselves — to integrate the light and dark, the mortal and immortal aspects of ourselves.  Then, this lunar cycle is a portal for healing in our closest relationships.  It is a time for healing old emotional wounds regarding relationships and a time to enter into more whole relationships in which the fullness of each person is honored, allowing a deep mutuality and respect.

Whether you believe in astrology or not, it does not matter. What this is saying is that it is a time to look within and open to being loved by ourselves and beyond. And in doing so, all relationships are healed.

I hope this has helped. I’ve been hearing that many are having a challenging time right now. We are in this together. Let’s Open to the Divine. Right now.

Blessings,

Asha

 

HAPPY FREEDOM DAY!

Friday, July 2nd, 2010
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I am finally a U.S. citizen and so this day has a little more meaning than years past.

I’m the first person to scoff at made up holidays, but this one, aside from the pretty colors, fire works, parties, beach, has something for me this time around. It’s all about FREEDOM. Freedom to be who I am. Not because I live in this country, but just because.

I’m beginning to think that Happiness and Peace are possible when we feel free. Like that song, Free To Be You and Me. I tear up every time my daughters sing this song.

And so YOU and me are free to be… you and me. I celebrate that today and this weekend.

Blessings,

Asha